I've really just been around no excitement. Playing with the kids(cat and dog) working... Playing with Matt. We had a great New Years from what i remember of it... I was kinda smashed. I'm really trying to think of what else to say but its kinda of just a good life (afterlife??) right now. Qho knew death made you a lot less angry...

I hope every one liked their gifts. Ichigo i hope you liked the hair clips, there from me and Matt. I really  didn't know what to get you. L you better wear your new cloths. I know its all black but you can mix them and match them also Use the clear polish on your nails it will make all your good work look better.  To my funny room mate, Hopefully the paper tree didn't confuse you. I hope you enjoy your new robe. Matt... Matt, Matt, Matt... what can i say about you or to you that i haven't already. Your gift was beautiful. I promise to wear it all the time just like my ring. i hope you enjoyed yours. You can be so hard to buy for... but i know that the shirt was perfect for you so was the belt buckle made out of an old video game controller.

Ratio i need to find you. even though your a git i got you something as well. And Nana you seem to be in hiding but as soon as i see you i will give yours as well.


So merry boxing day to all i have some boy friend to attend to.

well after what was a debocle of a birthday. I look forward to christmas. I've got a little present for both L and Hortorhi. And Matthew... well you will see what i've gotten you. I should speak with Ichigo since she is going back to see if she could find me something but I think i have everythign covered. I also have a gift to drop off to her before she leaves. And i don't want to do that before the party. Also Nana i have something small for you as well. You've more then earned it putting up with me these past months on here.


So that is really all for now. I should try and find us a small tree to decorate. I do miss that. We used to have the best trees at Whammy's  and this will be a speical christmas. To bad we don't have a church for me to go to service in.

the fucker forgot.

So yeah 6 days.... a certain someone better remeber a certian thing happening in 6 day sor he's gettinga certain boot in his ass.

I still love you bug regardless but you better not forget

OH THANK GOD! I am me again. I can cuddle on Matt again ( who did nothing but smoke for an hour after the change back. )  But I'm glad that he is him and I'm me.... Now I need to go make up for the week almost he spent locked away from me. and beat him for the woman comments...

... i kinda played with it some... i've never really played with boobs before found they were intresting to play with.

Still not a fan of women though....


So yes who ever has my body. Please don't freak the left side is scared. I'm a blonde white male. You will have a britsh like accent when you speak as well. Well some words will come out that way but so you know it is me and this is what you should look like.



Also under my glove there will be what looks like a wedding band if someone fucks with that ring or it goes missing. I will hurt the person's who body this is.

WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS!!!!!! I HAVE TITS AND BLACK HAIR? NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO. Oh someone better fucking be kidding me. Where's Matt.. I want Matt and a chocolate bar really badly right now...

~*~*~*~*Mello's note to be left behind if something happens to him*~*~*~*~

I find myself fighting again. This time i have no clue if I will get a second chance like I did here.

I really don't want to die again. I have to much living to do in the after would with Matt to do.

But if I don't make it. Know I died loving you Matt.

Is really going on right now... Everything has be quiet i guess that is a good thing this is paradise and all. Nothing exciting is going on no building blowing up no fights just sitting around going to work eating dinner and watching Matt play his game. Might go to the range again for a little excitement. but i guess I've fallen into the sorta married routine with Matt. and honestly... i think i like it.

So.


Last night after work i headed over to the firing range. God felt so good to hold a gun again. Not that fucking super soaker. To bad it can't be perminate. After I came home. Matt was still playing his new Zelda game....*grumbles* I came online and messed around a bit.

And I must ask this....


Mattchew my love...


WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU LOOKING UP WHEN I'M AT WORK!

I don't want to see tits when I open up my lap top.

You better not be getting ideas. And you can't blame this on Hotorhia he barely knows how to work the TV.

*rubs face* Is this why you keep calling me Princess Peach?

I'm gonna stop ranting and going to go get answers.

I enjoy our dates. I really do.

But I'm about to spazz about something that isn't Matt.

THEY GOT A FUCKING SHOOTING RANGE!!!!!
As you can see this makes me and my tringger finger quite happy....


But I will always love my Mattchew more then the shiney pistols...
Wow when did that revolation happen...

I guess getting them taken away was less trumatic to me here then lossing Matt...


Damn.

But that thought makes me smirk.

I think this week since Matt is better I might ask if he wants to see a movie at the theater. I heard they have the new Resident Evil. Enough action to keep me interested and its from a video game so I think he will be interested. Other then that nothing really new going on. Might start looking for things for the costumes.

Yep that time of year... can't wait to dress like a trick and get to unwrap my treat when I get home... we even know what were doing but its a surprise well not a big one but it will be fun. *grins* Can't wait for the 31st now.

So I'm sitting here bored. Not really sure what to do. Matt's asleep. Tought Hotohori how to cook well how to make soup. So he knows that now very basic but still needed to make it anyway so why not kill two tasks at once. Matt's looking a bit better not flushed anymore so I'm not so affraid to sleep next to him. Sleeping in the chair next to the bed has been killer the past couple of days. My neck and back are kinda sore but I need to not catch his cold so I can work. Need  more chocolate too... My stash is running low. Not that I'm eating them. There turning into something like Matt's fags for him. I'll take a few bites put it down and for get about it then get a new one and trash the old ones. Need to stop I have to start saving to get an awsome Halloween costume together. Since its really my favorite time of year now.

Oh and Ichigo we are sooo getting pudding or cake or something this week I miss hanging out with my favorite little cat girl.

He's looking a bit better. Which is good he's even playing his games but he's gone strangely quiet. I wounder what he's contemplating.

He's back where he needs to be. But saddly my poor love is now sick. What the fuck is going around the ship that's making everyone sick.... I hope i don' get it. One of us moaning and rolling around on the bed in ill health is enough....

Been a couple days since Matt said he as coming over...


He still hasn't come by.

I miss my fiancee. I know why he went back to his place but ok forgive me a month of nothing but him around we get rings then we fight over Misa. Then the roommate. Then were ok three day of the most mind blowing...yeah then I wake up to go to work one morning. And he's gone. Feels like earth all over again. I just want him with me if this is what were gonna be if he wants this with me. Why can't he be here. I didn't ask for a roommate it was given to me. He's not always here and I am fine with that. But I want my chain smoking goggle wearing gamer back home here with me in my arms.


If he doesn't come back soon I might have to get a pet just to have a compainon again. Maybe a dog or a cat.... or maybe just a collor around Matt...

....I really miss him.

I kinda like that that one game station is broken. He's like a dog in heat now though. He doesn't know down. I like it. I come home from work and not even 5 steps before being pulled into our room. A man could get used to this.